nata

i should have realised that i did need her..i should have loved her more, before its too late..now that im realizing all affection she gave to me, i have no chance to reply it back..i miss her so much now..frankly, i need her to support me at the moment..but somewhat, i feel she is so far away from me..maybe, she is happy now, no more misery, i should be happy for her..im selfsish, arent i??i want her to be here..at least, could i juz feel she is hugging me?? former, she always gave me kiss before she went out somewhere..n i, always demanded her to buy some things when she got back, n thankfully she never approved all the stuffs i asked..bcz she knew exactly what the best for me, what i needed..i once went together with her to a shop, n i saw such a beautiful tshirt in the shop, n since then i kept insisting her buy it for me, until she fed up n, tarram, finally she bought it for me..i had been wearing it for 4 years, more perhaps, altho the color of the shirt is fading away, n almost tigh..i left it at home..i wish somehow, ppl at home still maintain it for me..the one which has pooh picture on it..ok?!

thx

hi pals..im here writing to say thank u so much for yall who remembered my bday..its fine being late greeting me..’cz sometimes i forget as well, well thats even worse i know..

i also would like to say sorry for ppl who sent me sms but i didnt reply..im running out of balance..i still have $10 n i will have to keep it until next year..wow i know pretty hard..but..i’ll try..so gomene i didnt reply..im a bad friend, arent i T.T

umm last but not least..im 18 years now..old??i know..there r some things im going to do n not going to do..

i want to share..but not now..having class

so..

to be continued

oh tanggal 9 ya..5 more days..hikz hikz i just have 5 more days being 17 year old girl..im proud to say Im only 17..but 5 days later..Im 18, i juz dun like bcz being 18 means i nearly can do everything..altho i wont do ‘EVERYTHING’ but friends will say ‘u can drink now’ n bla bla bla..

when lani..when!!u have to be mature..the older u r, the more ashamed u have to be..really??not sure..i still can act childishly..yea its up to u lah..next year 19..then 20..5 years later 22..iya 22..im saying it now, instead of 5 days later..Im still 17 mah??so 17+5=22

to all my friends..with all my regards..oalah, apa se!!!!

kaga..benernya gua pengen minta bantuan..kan lu lu pada taw tar tanggal 4 nov i will do my ielts test, well for u who dont know yet, im telling u now..that..yea, i will do my ielts test this weekend, its very important for me to get enuff score..ive prepared myself, but im scared it wont go well..so guyssss, plz plz plz..wish me luck..wish i could do my best..to whoever u r..thank u so much…

aca aca fighthing

cia yo

ganbattene

God bless u…

n ME

some special people come, some leave..there is a companionship, there is a parting..some leave sweet memories behind, some hatred..nothing is everlasting..

maybe uve meet another special person, maybe im not important anymore, we had good times together, shared to each other..altho sometimes i wasnt nice, i was annoying, but that is me..human being, im not perfect..there r more beautiful girls compared with me, there r also more ugly girls..but none of them is like me..with my own goodness, as well as badness..

nothing i could wish for u but anything bad..maybe im too upset at the moment..but from the buttom of my broken heart, i feel relieve now..i swear, yea, believe it or not..but i feel like no burden anymore..

im happy we r over..this sadness, just temporarily..i deserve to get a better person..i dont think u do too..

what else i want to say?? feels like, those words r not enuff to describe what im feeling now..do i feel dissapointed to somebody??i do..am i sad?? a little..do i need somebody??i mean..not him of course, somebody else perhaps??err..yea..n no..confused?? me too..worried abt ur IELTS test?? i do..hix : ( wish me luck plzz..everybody, plz wish me luck..not him of course..i wish he never talk to me again..never ever..i wont talk to him..never ever..i hv to start deleting his sms in my cell, to many craps in it..also his pictures..i will delete from my cell phone, also tear up the one i printed..its disgusting..anyway… do u think im desperate? absolutely not…

FINALLY..bubye my past..welcome my future..wait wait!!! i hv to wear my sunglasses, bcz my future is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo BRIGHT

cya

hix hix new class..i hate it..new teachers, new friends, new room..bad atmosphere i miss my previous class, altho i dont really like some of my friends, the ones who are from……..ya know, but..i miss having quarrels with them..i miss the teachers, they r nice ppl, interesting as well as exiting teachers, i juz feel, yea u know..they always encourage every student in the class..i wish i wish i wish, yeaa i wish i had one more day to do all stuffs like we used to..n U, uhuh yall, friends who r in indonesia or going back to there..BBBAACCKKK!!!

hix maybe some of u dont like the class, or PERHAPS u dont like it bcz there is me, but i swear SWEAR SWEAR SWEAR, i’ll be good when with yall..so could we back to the past just for ONE day??plzzz

i know its hard, but life must go on..i’ll be good in my new class, trying to be the best, pass my IELTS test, not just pass, but reach the target..anyway..i need ur supports..my IELTS test will be on November 4th..ur supports will mean alot for me..one thing, i juz hope i wont be nervous n get all blank until i cant do the test, i JUZ wish, good health, confidence, possitive thinking, blessing, as the result i can do it all WELL..(OMG natttt, those include all)

the point is..ALL THE BEST FOR THE FUTURE

cyaaaa

well this is the day ive been waiting for a long time. the day without any test, without school, yea im very happy although someday i will miss everything abt school, miss the time we made our teacher cry, hey how r ya my friends in 2.1 n also miss the time we debated, whats up 3 science 1!!! n for 1.5, sorry i dont remember anything abt what we had been through.hehehe.
in this opportunity i want to say thx to :
1. my almighty Lord Jesus Christ, thx U bless me all the time although i often hurt U, but i know U wont ever leave me. thx
2. for chris, yea chris cameron, thx for encouraging me, u helped me alot.
3.for vq, who always say GAMBATE, thank u so much, bcoz of what u said, i believe myself that i must be able to through it.
4.for wage toto, although he isnt here, but its ok if i write here isnt it? thx for kept informing abt F1.
5.for all friends, jane, fres, dede, erlin, ike, ong, cia2, jul, lid, n also the rest whom i cant tell one by one. thx alot
n the most special is for my mom, no matter where u r, i miss ya so much, n i know u always accompany me. luv ya sooooooooo much. will u visit me n take me go with u? sometimes i feel tired facing all the problems in this world, n so sad when realized that im an orphan. u know? all my friends surround me hv a happy family, always talk abt their parents at home, abt their mom forbid them, abt their dad who pick them up when back from school, but all i hv is only word ‘former’, former my mom, former my dad, n now i wish i had at least word ‘yesterday my mom’ or this morning my dad’ , i cant even tell lie story how it feels having a happy family bcoz i never know how it feels having a happy family.
thx for reading this neway, n dont feel pity to me bcoz it makes me seems weak. u gotta say ‘cia yo nay, gambate, semangat, or whatever’ yea we’re all gotta live our life.
thx for ur attention

senangnya udah kelar UAS tinggal atu perjuangan lagi. SEMANGAT SEMUANYA hehehe bubye

gue sebel diperlakuin berbeda
gue sebel diperlakuin seperti orang ga mampu, sebel diperlakuin kaya orang yang ngemis ngemis
GUE SEBEL
neway, gue dah kelar loh ujian prakteknya. fiuh lega banget.’coz gua tadinya ga ngira kalo gua bakal bisa ngelaluinnye. sumpeh deh gue dah takut geto n mental gue dah jatoh gara2 pra UN 4 kaga lulus. ga taunya gara2 bio salah nilai, kudunya gue lulus tuh bio nya, cuman fisikanya itu loh. dikiiiiiiiiiit lagi lulus. tapi banyak koq yang fis nya ga lulus. tapi tetep aja ga lulus next time better. abis waktunya kurang, soalnya banyak banget.
tapi seneng akhirnya gue bisa nglaluinnya.i just hope can get the score as i expected

wo ai mama

wo ai papa

wo ai keke

wo ai cie cie

khe she pi tha men, wo cui ai ni

wo pu ce tau ni xian cai chai na li

xian cai cuo she me

ni hai ci te wo ma

wo cen te hen nan khu ni mei you cai wo te shen phien

wo i ce cao i ce cao, cao pu tau ni

wo pu ce tau xiang cuo she me

ni..khe pu khe yi kuai tian hui lai?

wo hau xiang ni wo te..

yang wa wa

??!!!!

mwahahahaha, kai wan xiao

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